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Closet fangirls, unite!
30 September 2009 @ 07:52 pm
Dear specific you,

I've said it before, and now I will say it again.

If I want to write one-sided Edward CullenxIntegral Hellsing? I can. And will.

More to the point, I was perfectly clear about this when I emailed you, asking if you wanted to beta for me. And your reply-a rant about the evils of the aforementioned pairing-is uncalled for and pointless.

No love,
Me
 
 
Closet fangirls, unite!
18 September 2009 @ 11:38 am
TABLE SEVEN - MISCELLANEOUS A
01.Colour. 02.Decisions. 03.Rules. 04.Betrayal.
05.Passion. 06.Truth. 07.Loyalty. 08.Forgiveness.
09.Risk. 10.Nature. 11.Questions. 12.Watching.

00/12
 
 
Closet fangirls, unite!
01 July 2009 @ 09:26 pm
<b>Fandom:</b> Morganville Vampire Series
<b>Pairing:</b> Amelie/Oliver
<b>Theme set:</b> Epsilon
<b>Rating:</b> PG-13
<b>Warning[s]:</b> Brief mentions of violence, sex, and death. No bad language. Abuse of parathesises.
<b>Comments:<b/> First attempt at Morganville Vampires fanfiction. Note that since there's no details on either Oliver or Amelie's pasts, the following sentences contain massive speculation on their lives pre-Glass Houses.

Goodbye

 

“Good night, Oliver,” She says, and then she forces her blood down his throat, because she’s not sure she’s ready to let him go.

 

Last

 

Her face is the last thing Oliver sees before he dies.

 

Now

 

The moment he died was the moment he began to really live.

 

God

 

After she turned him (for she was still young and weak) she prayed for his soul; later, she wondered why she’d bothered, or if he’d ever been in danger of losing it (or if she ought to have prayed for her own).

 

Ghost

 

When she rejected him, a thousand years ago, he looked hurt-that expression still haunts her, for all that she claims not to feel for him.

 

Harm

 

He hurts her pets whenever he feels too bitter about the way things are between them; it’s the only reason she lets him get away with it as often as she does.

 

Book

 

If he couldn’t have her, he’d thought, then he’d settle for taking everything that belonged to her-but holding the book in his hands wasn’t as satisfying as it could have been, particularly when he opened it and found it full of Shakespeare (who he detested) instead.

 

Sudden

 

He knows that his connection to her will outlast any sudden infatuations, but he also knows that it might not be enough to make her love him.

 

Eye

 

When she looks at Sam, the world vanishes; when she looks at Oliver, she vanishes into the world.

 

One

 

One by one, Amelie kills off her enemies, but Oliver continues to plague her.

 

Power

 

Is it desire for her or desire for power that keeps him near?

 

Cool

 

Amelie is frigid and distant for a century, and then she discovers Oliver isn’t dead after all-and the vase she breaks is irreparable.

 

Blur

 

The years begin to melt together, so that decades feel like days, but the moment Oliver arrived in Morganville is still dagger-sharp in her mind.

 

Wrong

 

It is foolish to get attached-vampires must learn to move on-but they do so, secretly, anyway.

 

King

 

Amelie tells herself that it is for everyone’s good (and not her own, personal desire) that she refuses to let Oliver become his own king.

 

Thousand

 

There are less than a thousand vampires left in the world, but Amelie reserves her worries for only her trusted friends (and Oliver).

 

Learn

 

She wants him to learn his place, but she’s not sure where it is (he knows it’s beside her).

 

Wait

 

Oliver hates waiting-for customers to make up their minds, for the attack to begin, for the sun to set-but he’s been waiting for Amelie for centuries.

 

Change

 

At some point, Amelie muses, Oliver will have to admit that black leather is not in style.

 

Command

 

Amelie commands respect; Oliver demands respect, usually with his teeth.

 

Naked

 

There are nude portraits from her days in France somewhere, Amelie muses-not knowing that Oliver managed to steal one and even now keeps it wrapped beneath the coffee shop.

 

 

Shadow

 

Vallery doesn’t know what Amelie and Oliver do, in that secret room downstairs, but he does know that it’s his job to make sure that no one ever sees the torn clothing that ends up on the floor there, every time they meet.

 

Precious

 

She cherishes little, but the few moments when they aren’t enemies, or tentative allies, but simply two old souls long intertwined: those moments are her own-enjoyment that isn’t bittersweet.

 

Safe

 

The would-be traitor takes a wild stab at her chest, and Olive snatches the stake from his hand, pins him to the wall with it, and insults her choice in bodyguards, all in the same breath.

 

Bother

 

“Don’t bother,” Amelie says to the too-wary bodyguard (her town is still young, and her servants still adjusting), and she watches Oliver leave (but she knows he’ll come back)

 

Hide

 

She waits impatiently for him to stop sulking in the dark and challenge her-her rule is stable and silent and so boring without him.

 

Young

 

Sam clings to his idealism, and Oliver can only smirk-was he ever that young and foolish, to think that Amelie would find his dreams more important than reality?

 

Soul

 

Amelie wishes she could believe in fairness, but she knows that vampires don’t have souls, or hearts, or anything deserving of love.

 

History

 

They play the same game, over and over, a checkmate that never lasts longer than a decade-Oliver will never tell her that he could win (she relies too heavily on the queen).

 

Fortune

 

Oliver met Bishop in a temple to Tyche, Greek goddess of luck, and when he escaped, barely alive, he pitied Amelie for the first time.

 

Drive

 

Oliver suspects that Amelie’s coded chess games were devised with the secondary purpose of driving him insane (and he’s right).

 

Child

 

“Don’t be sentimental, Amelie-you know well enough that they’re not children anymore,” and you have be stronger than this, is the unspoken reminder (which she hears plain as day).

 

Gentle

 

Oliver touches Amelie’s face, white as death, and reaches out-come back, wake up, he thinks, or I’ll kill one of your pets out of spite

 

Wall

 

There is only an inch between their faces, but it might as well be a silver wall-they cannot bear to admit they’d like to be closer.

 

Need

 

She bites deep into his arm, sucking out his life, and he forgets to pull away.

 

Hunger

 

Her bite (full of hunger and pain) is as close as he’ll ever come to a kiss.

 

Vision

 

Sam watches Amelie, her mouth stained with Oliver’s blood, her unthinking pleasure as she licks her lips…and wonders who she really is.

 

Picture

 

Amelie sees the pictures of Oliver in his scarecrow costume online (captioned HE IS EVIL), imagines his expression, and-very slightly-smiles.

 

Fool

 

She’d give up Myrnin, her pet fool, before she’d give up him-he takes comfort in that.

 

Mad

 

She’s mad to think that Oliver is trustworthy, but she doesn’t fear as he puts the leash around her neck.

 

Hold

 

She wouldn’t have the strength to face her father if Oliver wasn’t holding her upright, something solid against the pain.

 

Motion

 

Amelie and Oliver move together, in unison, as they lead the way towards the end.

 

Attention

 

The day after the funeral, Oliver comes and drinks tea with her in silence (and afterwards, she feels better).

 

Wash

 

Long after the battle with Bishop is done, Amelie receives her pale pink suit, neatly repaired, and remembers-the pain of silver, the memory of Sam lodged somewhere in her innards, and Oliver, smiling as he takes off the leash, and lets her go.

 

Time

 

Forever, indeed, Claire thinks indignantly, as Oliver runs a finger along the inside of Amelie wrist in full view (although Claire is too young to understand the vampire art of letting go).

 

Torn

 

“I told you that you were giving them too much,” Oliver complains, as they wait for the sunset under the ashes and corpses of what was once Morganville, and (there’s no reason to pretend any longer to be emotionless) she snarls, even as she admits (to herself) that he’s right.

 

Sing

 

“Have you always loved me, Oliver?”

 

Stop

 

He pauses, halfway out the door, and turns to say, truthfully, “Always, and you?”

 

Never

 

“Never,” She whispers-but that is a lie.

 

Believe

 

She likes the solitude of churches, and their quiet, their beauty, their echoes of the faithful, their purity (and the memories they invoke, of a different time, and a different church, where she met and prayed for and killed a man named Oliver).

 
 
Closet fangirls, unite!
08 April 2009 @ 02:25 pm

If you discovered a new planet, what would you name it?

Submitted By [info]thethicket


View 505 Answers

Nemesis, of course.
 
 
Closet fangirls, unite!
19 January 2009 @ 02:49 pm
It is snowing here! I am so happy! WiIl there be school tomorrow? I beg you, world, let the answer be no!
 
 
Closet fangirls, unite!
19 January 2009 @ 11:29 am

Here we go:

fakeFCKRemoveGod, this is long. )~
 
 
Closet fangirls, unite!
26 December 2008 @ 03:17 pm
Yo.  

Right. Entry.
  • Currently playing with layouts. Also, created new community.
  • I started a Twilight/Hellsing crossover for no good reason other than I could. Basically, after a botched assassination attempt, Integral is packed off to the lonely town of Forks. On her first day of school, Edward tries to eat her. As you can imagine, she does not take this well. Featuring Girlycard and Smart!Bella.
  • Midterms in four weeks. I'm gonna fial ti all.
  • Mombasa! Africa! Ashara! Yes, I will see Moula in Africa soon enough, and it will bring me great and wonderful things. I know. If only I had more clothes...


 
 
Closet fangirls, unite!
19 December 2008 @ 10:09 pm

A few more icons, Hellsing-themed, none of them animated this time. Numbers one and two are hand drawn, and my first time drawing something that isn't a stick figure. Thus, I am proud of them and would like you to inform me via comment if you taek them. The rest are simple, and require no credit whatsoever.
 

1Click Here. )
 
 
Closet fangirls, unite!
19 December 2008 @ 07:08 pm

I've decided to update every Friday. FIgured it was good to get in the habit lest I be branded a troll or a sock puppet.

Schoolwise:
  • One of our guidance people looks just like Omar Epps.
  • I fail at AP US History. I mean, if I get a three on the AP exam it will be some sort of divine miracle.
  • Freshmen are obnoxious. They should be shot. The yare too happy and they have so much drama. There are several girls in my Art I class that just irk me, because they a) don't do their work, b) wander around complaining and bitching about other girls and c) fighting with each other using art supplies. Ugh. Cna't they keep their issues outside the class? Or at least get Mr. C. to move them elsewhere?
  • I like Chemistry. it's hard, but in a good way. We made candy canes. They were icky. My Chem. teacher looks seriously like Zachary Quinto (Sylar from Heroes) in a good way.
  • I love the last day before a break; no one gets any work done and there's just this feeling in the air...and we watch movies. or in the case of my math clas, paly this really, really bizarre game called Bunny. Basically, everyone sits in a circle and claps in rhythm, saying "Mm cha, mm cha, mm cha." One person starts by saying "Who's got the bunny?" Everyen else repsonds, in unison, "You've got the bunny!" Then the starting person makes a pincer hand motion towards someone else and says, "Bunny, bunny, bunny, bunny." They passs the bunny to someone else, and it just goes on and on. If the person next to you gets the bunny, you distract them by waving your hands at them and say, "Toki, toki.". If you don't have the bunny and you're not toki-ing at anyone, you keep with the "Mm cha." it looks like the players are preparing to sacrifice someone to the heathen gods or some crap like that.
  • Hopefuly, the piece I submitted to the LitMag at my school gets in.
Homewise:
  • My b-day party plans are underway. Katsucon 15, here we come! Plus i have ot get my cosplay together tomorrow. Going to Ross; also going to find a wig, dammit. Might get my hair cut even shorter.
  • Scanner has ceased to function. Even the EWS thingy doesn't work anymore. Gotta get my dad to look at it.
  • I won the first challenge over at lastauthstands. Go me. Hoping ot keep going dtrong.
  • Working on two fanmixes: KenshinxTomoe and a genreal romance one.
  • Experiemnting with Photoscape and GIMPshop as I try to make icons. And fanmix covers.
  • Trying to teack myself how ot draw. I have zero artistic ability, as in my stick figures are butt-ugly zero. But I did manage a chibi Integra and a chibi Girlycrd that looked freakin' awesome considering my fail of talent. i got my Sharpies today, but the scanner fialness mena I can't try and color them yet. Yet.
Fanfiction:
  • Working on Convoluted Chapter Six. My beta, however, is out of town, so I'm going to see if I can find an alternate if I get done earlier than planned. The chapter is evil. I have no idea what's going to happen, but I figure something will come to me. Eventually. Or I could work on my Atalanta Hellsing reworking, or The Marriage, or original pieces...
  • I want to write a Twilight/Hellsing crossover where Edward meets Integra...and discovers the lure of her blood is like Bella times three thousand. Or, if  I feel really crackish...Girlycard. Oh, yeah.
  • Also, I need to finish that AxI versus ExB essay. Right now, I'm comparing Edward and Alucard. Good times..but I have only Breaking Dawn and Twilight at my disposal, so it's hard to find evidence...
 
 
Closet fangirls, unite!
21 November 2008 @ 03:36 pm
Okay, feeling a little ranty. Here goes: why is it that some authors think they don't need an editor? I'm talking about tihngs I've seen at fanfiction.net here, so they may not be 'authors,' but..."I have spell-check. I can do my own editing. Someoen else wouldn't understand this piece."

An author's relationship with a piece is intrinsicly different from that of a reader! Always! Because an author knows. They know, first of all, more information than a reader because they are the ones who've created this work. They know more backstory, they know all those little details that never make it into the story, and they have their own view about what the story is. An author reading their own work cannot make a totally objective analyzation because they know the motives and reasoning behind every word. What's more, all this knowledge can make inconsistancies and confusing things harder to find because the automatically fill in things not mentioned.

A reader, on the other had, knows nothing except what is on the page before them. So they will notice awkward sentences, inconsistancies, motive-less actions. All thses errors are much clearer to a reader. They're not, at least the first time they read it, emotionally attached to the piece so they don't try to justfy things. What's more, a reader will interpret things differently. Look at the masses of shippers out there in the world for every form of media. The multitude of pairings results from people's interpretations of the piece in question.

That's not to say one is better than another. Ideally, editing should be a colalboration between an outsider and the author, so that the two of them can make any necessary changes together. An author's word is the last word, but a reader can help make any changes that will make the story better for another reader. If you are writing and need an editor, first go over it yourself. Fix it. Then have someone else look over it. Then go over it again. It's not a sign of bad writing or or lack of skill to need someone else; no one is a perfect writer, and someone else's view can only help you improve.

This applies to any writing you do, ever, but I direct it to fanfiction authors in particular, especially people at Fanfiction.net, because original fiction authors, in my experience, tend to have an easier time and are more inclined to show their work around if they intend to publish it anywhere. And if you're a writer for a living, naturally, someone is going to edit your work, so no problems there. It's the masses of badly formatted, unpunctuated stuff I see at FFN.net and other fanficition sites, which has potential and could be so improved if only someone had lookd at and told the author they needed a comma here and a different word there.

If you write something with no intention of anyone else ever seeing it, leave it however you like. But if you intend to publish it and have other people read it, don't you want it to be near-perfect? Don't you feel an obligation to your public?

If this whole ting sounds incredibly righteous and stupid, oh well. It's my point of  view. I've always had someone look over my work before it was posted anywhere. I feel like it helps, a lot. And I love editing.

chickentyrant5, out.
 
 
Closet fangirls, unite!
18 November 2008 @ 06:03 pm
paperclipchains wrote an article on Hellsing Voting Habits. raykat commented on it, and it inspired this little beauty. if it sucks, so be it. It's the first tim I've written Heinkel or Yumiko/Yumie.
Heinkel. Yumie. Marriage. You all knew it was coming. )
 
 
Closet fangirls, unite!
17 November 2008 @ 06:59 pm
Yo.  


Journal Objective: Babbling 'bout Convoluted.

Convoluted is my baby, my Hellsing epic, my precious, and my best work without a doubt. It's an AU set in a VHD-esque future where vampires rule. it can be found at my FFN page, which is in the links section of this page. i love it.

Spoilers below! The following contains the entire plot of a story that hasn't been published completely yet. If by some miracle someone is reading this and actually wants to read the story, do not click on this unless you want to be massively spoiled. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.

 

Convoluted Plotline )

 

 

Convoluted Plotline )

 


 

 
 
Closet fangirls, unite!
06 November 2008 @ 03:35 pm
Finally got a defualt pic I liked. From dreadful_icons.
 
 
Closet fangirls, unite!
05 November 2008 @ 04:31 pm

I wrote this. It is awesome. Or not.

Fandom: Hellsing
Title: Silence
What is this?: A poem set in that thiry-year gap before Romancia.
Summary: Integra waits. It's too quiet.

The silence is unnerving.

 

No voices in her head.

No laughter around the corner.

No unnatural winds whistling

outside her window.

 

No one to guide her anymore.

No one to question her.

Just the quiet of power.

 

A lonely quiet.

 

The rain drums against her rooftop

and she taps the pen against the edge of the desk,

waiting for the noise that won’t come.

This late afternoon has only just begun.

 

No interruptions, or meetings.

No mocking and no toothy grins.

Be careful what you wish for.

She doesn’t want it,

not anymore.

The quiet just goes on and on.

 

Her bullets sound hollower,

as if their power was drained,

or maybe the silence just hurts her ears.

No matter.

 

Maybe someday it will be loud again.

Go ahead. Tell me it sucks. Assuming, of course, that anyone ever reads this crap.

 
 
Current Mood: creative
 
 
Closet fangirls, unite!
05 November 2008 @ 03:34 pm
Soap  

So. First Entry.

Journal Objective: Ranting and raving, as per usual.

I like the smell of generic shampoo and conditioner. People are always telling me how great my hair smells, or how soft it is. But I'm picky about my body wash- something uber-moisturizing, that smells good. Of ocurse, I also have the emergency 'given as a gift' stuff in case I run out. My mother has three of everything, and it's all expensive, brand name type stuff. She's generous about it, though. My brother has not yet learned the wonders of being clean. Oh, well.

I write fanfiction.  I like writing. It's great stress relief, and I tend to internalize. Consequently, I am very private over my writing ,and if you're allowed to see it, it's been edited up the wazoo. i write mostly original poetry and fanfiction prose, since original prose for me equals EPIC FAIL. I take a notebook with me everywhere, and if I have no paper or pen and inspiration strikes, I'll save stuff as text message drafts into my phone. Inspiration is an iffy thing for me: when I have it, i hardly need to edit and I love the result. When I don't...I can revise thirty times and still be upset with the product. Which is why I could never write for a living.

I like anime/manga and reading. My bookshelf is crazy and painted bright red.

I really, really, really like chickens. A lot.

That's all for today. I'm new to the whole 'blog' thing, so whatever.
 
 
Current Location: Basement
Current Mood: apathetic
Current Music: None
 
 
 
 

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